6:59 AM - Shane Koyczan

I've been told
that people in the army
do more by 7:00 am
than I do
in an entire day

but if I wake
at 6:59 am
and turn to you
to trace the outline of your lips
with mine
I will have done enough
and killed no one
in the process.

In a romantic mood tonight

...but then again, when am I not?

• Pride and Prejudice playing on my tv
• champagne-colored nail polish
• TOTES wearing this for Lauren's wedding
• probs ending this calm evening with a little Pablo Neruda
• this movie has one of the best soundtracks I've heard
• especially "Dawn"

Also, I happen to be surrounded by young, single men. And they're all pre-priests. Greeeat.

(not) Waiting for my prince to come

This weekend, I went to Creighton's production of Into the Woods, which I surprisingly have never heard of before this year. I really enjoyed it, mainly because Tim was absolutely hilarious in it - he was Cinderella's prince, and bahahahaha...I was laughing so loud at him (and the cow, Milky White). Besides the hilarity, though, I liked the show because it made me realize something.

I don't want a Prince Charming.


I'm not saying that I don't want a man in my life.Y'all know me, and you know that's not true. But Tim had a line in the second act..."I was raised to be charming, not sincere." Then later, Cinderella had a line that was something to the effect of "his house was a nightmare and yours is a dream, but I want something in-between."

It was those two lines that really made me think. I don't want someone who's perfect. I want someone whose imperfections I can see, someone who doesn't hide them from me. Then I can be more comfortable in sharing my own. I want someone real, because that's the only way I would be able to find something real. Because in all actuality, isn't it the imperfections that make relationships beautiful? Without them, things would be boring, bland, and simple.

Easy doesn't mean right. Usually, easy actually means wrong - it's too easy to do what you want when what you need is really difficult. But we have to push through the difficult times, the imperfect times, to really appreciate the beauty in our lives. Without those hard times, how would we know who's really there for us? How would we know who really loves us for the people we are, rather than the people they think we are/want us to be?

I don't know who he is, I don't know where he is. But I know he's out there, my un-Prince Charming. He'll love me not because I'm perfect, but because my imperfections are parts of me. We'll grow together, accomplish things, love each other like no one ever loved us before.

Until then, I have friends who love me for exactly who I am. How do I know? I know because they stick with me through hard times. No, they do more than that. They carry me through hard times, push me to be me and no one else. They don't falter in times when I feel like I don't deserve them, they celebrate with me when I find things to love about myself. They demand that I tell them five things I love about myself, they supply endless hugs, they wake me up with texts. They tell me secrets, they tell me to "find perfection in the imperfections." So this one goes out to Scott, Eric, Bill, Steph, Patrick, Katie, Shannon, Katherine, Elane, Franky and others.

Also: I felt pretty last night. I was stressing about things to wear, right down to the jewelry, but I found an outfit that was just right. I didn't try too hard with my makeup and hair, and I felt pretty. No one had to tell me for me to feel it, which I think was the best part.

Teenage Dream

"Let's just talk all through the night...there's no need to rush."
"When you're around me, life's like a movie scene. I wasn't happy until you became my queen. I finally found you, my missing puzzle piece...I'm complete."
"Let you rest your head on me if that's what you need in this teenage dream tonight."
Video found here.

I love this version soooo much. Teenage Dream is one of my favorite songs, but this remake has really enhanced it.

This. This is what I want. I want to talk all through the night with you, revealing secrets and fears and dreams. I want to rest my head on your shoulder. I want you, forever and ever.

Please?

Only Hope

"You have bewitched me, body and soul. And I love, I love, I love you and never wish to be parted from you from this day on."

I just finished watching Pride & Prejudice. I think I could watch that movie on repeat and never tire of it. It's my favorite movie AND my favorite book. It's the perfect romance, what every girl dreams about. I'm sitting here, trying to say something about it, and I've got nothing. What can I even say? I'm in awe of it. A love like that...it's what I've always wanted, what I'll want my entire life.

The question remaining is...who's going to help me find that?

Basketball High

So I haven't posted for a few days, but that is mainly due to the fact that nothing really happened. Basically all I've been doing all week is homework...although I did apply for Summer Preview and Welcome Week today. To tell the truth, I'd rather be a part of SP because I didn't really enjoy WW as much as I did SP. But I still hope to get both! :) Interviews Saturday, 11:45 and 12:15. Wish me luck!
Hey...Saturday is Valentine's Day! It's the first one I've gotten to spend with a "significant other"...mostly because I haven't had an actual significant other before...close, but not really. But that's a different story. This year, and hopefully many more, I will be spending it with Ryan. :D <3 style="font-style: italic;">Faust), and I realize more and more each class that I am completely of the romantic persuasion. But I don't really think that's a bad thing. I like it.

Hokay, so there's my post for another couple of days...later! Lovez. :)