Diagram

Mreh. Not too fond of this one. It might have helped if my blood sugar wasn't low while I wrote it.

A dia­gram of my body
to map out every­thing
that’s wrong with it.
Start­ing with the pan­creas,
down to the intestines,
nei­ther of which do their
assign­ments prop­erly
Then back up to the heart,
which you’ve man­aged to
keep from beat­ing nor­mally,
instead forc­ing it to pound,
out of sync with the ratio­nal brain.

Closed

Soooo used. "Closed" is a terrible oneword. What else do you expect other than closed doors? Gahhh. Well, here it is anyway.

Closed doors wait­ing to be opened…reminds me of my heart. You could be the only one with the key. But if you never try to unlock those doors, how will you ever know if you are?

I tried to sleep, but I woke myself up. I'm too melancholy to cry, to sleep, to write anything worthwhile.

Affection

It grows every day
stronger, higher, deeper
than I ever expected.
I’m try­ing to open you up,
get a glance inside
the shell around you.
Because you have done
the same for me.

Understood

I thought I under­stood life once.
All I really under­stood was school.
I didn’t under­stand peo­ple,
I didn’t under­stand rela­tion­ships,
I didn’t under­stand I love you.
You made me real­ize that.
Maybe that’s why I hate you.

Railroad

I don't like it, but I'm going to post all the onewords I do.

I grew up by the rail­road.
The town’s bor­dered by them.
When I was play­ing in the park
out back behind my house
and I would hear a train com­ing
I always got so scared
and would run into the house cry­ing,
think­ing it was going to take me away.

Habit

Shots after shots
forced into it
a life you never wanted
hell, a life no one would want
so what do you do with it?
you make it who you are
but you say that you’re the one in con­trol
liar